Neurosis

Once I think that my self-esteem is where it should be something happens to knock it down a few notches. It's usually something internal and stupid; like what I experienced last weekend.

My ladies and I went out for an evening of dancing at ye olde Flanagans derby night. First, I have no idea what possessed us to think that this was a good idea but it sounded like fun at the time. The douchebags with popped collars count was astronomical! What got me realizing that maybe I wasn't feeling as good about myself as I should was when - out of my group - some dude would make a pass on all of the ladies, get rejected, and then settle with me. Of course they got the stink eye and an elbow jab from me.

Each one of us in our group has our own self-esteem issues, and we talk about this freely, but damn! I am getting tired of the roller coaster.